Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Bronagh Bainin's LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Friday, November 10th, 2006
1:11 am	Tengo que partir, mi amor Al principio usted me adoró a causa de las similitudes que usted vio en mí Entonces usted vio ésos en usted mismo Entonces usted recordó que usted no es el valor mucho Y si usted no piensa que usted vale enamorándose de - cómo puede esperar usted que nadie enamorarse más de usted? Dígame cómo yo le destruí, el amor. Porque veo todavía alguien que es divino. Quizás usted es más en el amor con la lucha que con el amor él mismo When you suffocate love for yourself you suffocate love for the world Yo iré. Yo no quiero a tres personas en la cama cuando uno de ellas es una memoria Mas ella finge todavía ser una realidad Aunque te quiero, no hay sitio para mí Current Mood: melancholy (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
11:20 pm	I am still human There is a fountain of energy within me that pours forth as I am love In steady coursing streams of caressing light and beauty Graceful, flowing, ever moving, empowering, touching inspiring There is more than enough to bathe everyone around me in this light It is the power of peace, joy, abundance, love, satisfaction, fulfillment It is the spirit of being truly alive This bright white river of love and delight Flows, runs, meanders, gushes, through me every day Forever grateful for the faces that stay to mirror my soul when I have strayed My spirit dances through life and no one and nothing bothers me Only my compassion for the suffering I see Which explodes into a million sparks within me reaching out to the world And lights my heart on fire with an eternal passion for life The joy that I feel to be here, to create magic, to breathe I am all that and more I am more than enough for me I am strong enough to seek clarity when I am weak I am courageous enough to show my faults, own up to them, admit to them, apologize for them and move on even when it takes an enormous amount of effort to overcome I am ready to learn, to risk, to grow, to love, to lose, to leave I am scared to stay Embracing the heart that races within me to show that I am alive The heart that beats blood through my veins to experience love in all its physical human and spiritual forms Agape, Philia, oh sweet delicious Eros… Through music, through dance, through magic, sex, yoga, meditation, nature, trance birds, trees, oceans, rivers, streams, autumn leaves, the smell of new grass, a perfect pear, peach, family, hugs, warmth, cocoa, feasts, dinners, warm tea in winter, fresh snow, peaceful landscapes, touching art, instruments, lights, candles, electrical power, internet, e-mail, friendship, friends, lovers, opera, coffee, bands, djs, cds, minidisks, mp3s, ipods, powerbooks, macintosh, graphic design, organics, animals, hybrid cars, effective politicians, peace, hippy clothes, religions, spirituality, ashrams, teachers, people, connections, sensuality, singing, posters, lotions, conditioners, concerts, gigs, plants, herbs, spices, bliss, sleep, dreams, intentions, alternative health centers, the miracles of modern conventional healthcare, creations, destructions, transitions, tarot, audio visuals, raves, amplifiers, fiddlers, warm soup, cd burning, digital cameras, manual cameras, galleries, coffee shops, museums, cultures, volunteers, charity organizations, Seattle, San Francisco, Toronto, London, languages, Africa, Spain, Scotland, Canada, shops, clothes, shoes, a roof over my head, warm blankets to sleep in, a city I love, heat in the winter, credit cards, plastic money machines, PCC, bicycles, tables to eat on, chairs to sit upon, independent films, plays, snowboards, skis, hiking boots, mountains, lakes, butterflies, bees, flowers, playboys and Play Stations, video arcades, movie theatres, Silver Platters, Sonic Boom, Teavana, Travelers, martial art classes, pens to write poetry, computers and keyboards to make it faster, forums, action, education, activists, learners, listeners, environmentalists, stereos, microphones, drum sticks, hands, hair, razors to shave it off, feet, skin, eyes, ears, legs, muscles, mouth, nose, nerves, my mother and father who brought me here to experience it all… (Comment on this)
Friday, October 13th, 2006
1:45 pm	COVENANT KICKED BUTT LAST NIGHT BOUNCY BOUNCY BOUNCY! ROTERSAND AND IMPERATIVE REACTION BOTH DID ENCOURES! COVENANT HAD TWO! I love my loving hugging bouncy joyous friends! Pure freaking smiles and bouncy energy all night long! What a workout! More friends, more connections, more people, more happiness! I love gigs like that What a wonderful and fantastically amazing life I live! *"EXTERMINATE, ANNIHILATE, DESTROY!"...* *I've wasted so much time On waiting for you to see how much You threw away When time meant everything Your promise fell apart And I stood here without a way To recover..."* hehehe Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
3:09 pm	I'm feeling very strange at this moment Like I'm done with life for now I've completed something I kind of feel ready to die Not that I want to escape anything Just like I'm on the edge of transitioning Into a new world I think I'll sleep for now Goodnight for these moments now sweet world Farewell to me at present I want to wake up in the next part of life fully alive Current Mood: nothing (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
5:06 pm	Smiles in the darkness Laughter and joy Movement rhythm pulsating happiness Shining out loving rays into the world The energy of pure bliss you bring to the world The music that resonates through such a soul Your heart constantly singing In every moment of your life The music of just you being Sharing your beauty with the universe To be near you is to feel ALIVE (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
10:17 am	Rebellion My internet is down but I can walk across the street to a cafe Nothing like starting the morning with Enrique Inglesias in the background of the cafe The Latin kick is taking over like a fever Last night my friend was playing Bossa Nova I BOUGHT three CDs yesterday THREE, NEW I never pay for music anymore! Oh what joy to be obsessed again Here am I dancing Salsa in the mornings Maybe life really is just about dancing and singing I used to think it was boring to be happy all the time singing and dancing with that sort of enthusiasm let the rythm touch your heart blah blah blah Maybe there's actually something to that I just wasn't open enough to listen I want here, I want now I want Flamenco guitar in my ears I want nights dancing Tango with my friends I want no future I want to dance now I want here I want now I want enlightenment, deep connections I want people to talk to me/with me I am free I am not waiting to be happy I am not yours I do not belong to anyone I am me I have no morals My world is not made of wrong and right Set me free or I will break out with a vengeance of liberation And joy so furious I will infect the world with all those who want to share my joy And leave the bitter to despair in the dust I will be free (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
10:51 pm	songity song song song I would have given you all of my heart But there's someone who's torn it apart And she's taken just all that I had But if you want I'll try to love again Baby I'll try to love again but I know The first cut is the deepest Baby I know the first cut is the deepest But when it come to being lucky she's cursed When it come to loving me she's the worst I still want you by my side Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried And I'm sure going to give you a try And if you want I'll try to love again Baby I'll try to love again but I know The first cut is the deepest Baby I know the first cut is the deepest But when it come to being lucky she's cursed When it come to loving me she's the worst I still want you by my side Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried But I'm sure gonna give you a try 'cause if you want I'll try to love again Baby I'll try to love again but I know The first cut is the deepest Baby I know the first cut is the deepest When it come to being lucky she's cursed When it come to loving me she's worst Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Monday, September 25th, 2006
8:04 pm	I live in heaven everywhere The sunsets over the mountains and water and the lush trees that line either side of my view When I come to visit you I will collect some heaven in a bottle I will go to my favourite parks and collect some of the air and scent of my favourite trees I will collect some essence of the breeze by the beach And the song of the seagulls over the salty water I will gather the feeling of rosy orange sunsets and the way the sun sparkles through the leaves I will take the joy of being able to walk to coffee shops And place the sheer ecstacy of dancing to music with friends late at night inside too The calm and comfort from drinking warm herbal teas in winter The spices of hot cider on Christmas I will harvest them in as well The laughter of friendship The feeling of being hugged by those you love most dearly The magic that a memory stirs of sharing precious moments of life by your side Beloved And I will arrive And give it all to you Current Mood: romantic (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 21st, 2006
9:55 pm	happy equinox It was so nice to make out last night Too bad it was only in my dreams You know how I tend to let my imagination run free But if I could find a way I wouldn't hesitate a day To create that reality I sang a song and read a poem I wrote On the beach tonight among friends candles were lit stories were told Under trees strong and old As summer comes to an end We had grapes and fruit juice and bread Then we looked at the stars As the sun went down painting the clouds Over the salty water I wished you were there As we enjoyed the beauty Eden (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 19th, 2006
3:19 pm	Help! I can't load av files from my digital camera onto my mac into iphoto via usb? It will load photos just fine, just not videos Why? Is there something I need to buy? grrr... (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
6:25 pm	When you don't work on mondays you can climb trees in the park and read books on sunny afternoons after gorgeous grey mornings and watch people walk their dogs and kids run around and smell the cedar all around you (Comment on this)
2:30 pm	aaaaarggghhh have i posted enough yet? do i have anything better to do with my time than repeatedly post on lj how horny i am in the same day? of course I do i'm just not doing it! *looks up more pictures of gillian...* :) djobi djobi djobi djoba cada dia te quiero mas ok, too much estrogen in the tofu lately i'm thinking Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
3:27 pm	Why do we bother with these silly things? How to make a BronaghBainin Ingredients: 1 part intelligence 5 parts humour 1 part instinct Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy! Username: Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com (Comment on this)
11:10 am	Life is generally amazing like always I LOVE LEO KOTKE! ...mmm god, what is it about beautiful guitar music... What an amazing weekend and it's not even over! Wednesday - Awesome day at KEXP like always! I got to see Geoffrey Castle playing another gorgeous show at the Triple Door on accoustic and electric violin/fiddle. What a treat. Met the marketing manager there who books shows. She's a sweetie. Told me to say hi to Cheryl, also a sweetie of course. Thursday - we got to break into one of my neighbors apartments! It was exciting. I got to crawl through the window and everything... Then out to a dinner (nothing like a little b & e [breaking and entering] to wet the appetite) where the waitress was extremely friendly and I didn't have to feel like the first pain in the ass they ever had to wait on for being vegetarian. Wow. So I asked her if they had any chillout yoga videos or new age music next...she said, only at her house. Friday - My Scruffy wish came true! Scruffy texted me to say he was playing hookie at work So we and another Scruffy went for a long bike ride / hike/ climb/ walk adventure around Discovery Park What a gorgeous day it turned out to be that day! Misty moisty morning and gorgeous cool blue skies We walked around the shore and climbed the rocks And went beyond the signs they say not to go beyond And trespassed over the gates to see what was beyond them And ate beautiful sweet ripe blackberries off the side of the path And climbed the perfect climbing tree on the bluff We walked along the piers and looked at all the boats Scruffy bought two fresh big salmon Then one Scruffy and I had dinner and another Scruffy came to join us He had a glass of merlot and we headed to chocolate and tea We all went to his house and played dominos Then over to mine and listened to wonderful radio shows And off to Nightmare Before Christmas One Scruffy stayed the night so I got to have warm hugs in the morning! I got to make him homemade hot chocolate and instant oatmeal before he went. Samuel called about Decibel Fest but I was beat when I got home. Meant to go a party in my neighborhood think...can't remember... Anyway I crashed at 8pm! The way you feel your heart beat in your chest when you haven't had enough sleep for too long...went to bed and was out.. This fresh cloudy morning I slept in just as late! And made homemade Chai with fresh whole spices mixed with almond milk and happiness. Current Mood: comfy Current Music: Cesaria Evora (Comment on this)
Friday, September 15th, 2006
9:20 am	Ta an aimsir go maith agus fliuch agus fuar...mmmm What a beautiful day for hot tea and snuggles! I wish I had a Scruffy to cuddle to with and keep me warm. *resisting turning on the heat and drinking more warm tea to make up for it* Current Mood: cuddly/snuggly Current Music: Chan Chan - which is probably a mistake since it will stick (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
8:41 pm	Hehehe Thinking of something sweet and cute Like the night big eyed six month old Arlo gently grabbed my nose About three times! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
8:50 pm	spicy quote Just back from work ... nearly 9pm *phew* Good job though. Unpacked most everything and even broke a dish for the client for her convenience. Doesn't quite have enough space for all her stuff anyway. drinking Yogi chai now...super spicy, left the bag in to long and added pepper mmmm gorgeous the quote on the tag this time is: The Whole Universe is the stage on which your mind dances with your body, guided by your heart! (Comment on this)
9:51 am	Nothing to start your day happily and giddily like waking up to the English Beat Followed by Deus Yay! My god am I obnoxiously happy these days! :) (Also Chatted with Rain on IM yesterday evening about Secret movie. He said they watched it the birthday party. What a way to bring something much more important than past rifts to the light and move on. Having honest open speaking terms and a true feeling of peace is such a good thing. I hate hate HATE being bitter at people, especially wonderful people. Still feeling like a bit too many eggshells between us but newfound courage to tip toe through them in terms of new way of relating, communicating and listening. About bloody time for me!). Having wonderful conversations with Fox again! Yay! Oh but long distance can be sooo bloody frustrating. Grrr. So if they have pills to suppress appetite are there ones to suppress libido? Sigh. Oh well at least there's the second best thing like - FOOD! - especially wonderful yummy organic food and gorgeous smelling freshly breweed herbal teas! Wonder what is going on Sunday at decibel fest? Maybe instead a sunday hiking trip.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
9:11 am	el arte en me alma florecer y bailando por la vida I love my life! I love the place where I wake up everyday I love late night conversations in coffee houses with other amazing worldly travelled friends - even better when I just met them - especially when they happen nights in a row! wheee! I love *choke, hack, wheeze* (can't believe I'm saying this) wonderful little kids I love amazing inspirational films, art, music, songs, plays, languages, dance, - especially tango. I've finally let myself immerse into fine arts and feel my soul flourishing in doing so. I love sunsets over Greenlake and the way the light plays through the leaves of trees and being able to enjoy them when I'm travelling to friends I have yet to meet I love living close to the mountains and hiking I love running on the beach I love dark chocolate and herbal tea and luscious spices like cinnamon and chili powder I love organic food and farmers markets and being healthy I love yoga, tai chi, dancing I love reading and talking and learning and living and breathing I love being alive (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 1st, 2006
10:46 am	Dreams with Wolves (How's that for a mystic New Age chill-out CD title) Last night I had a really long sleep/dream: I’d been out hiking in the mountains and camping with the Seattle yahoo hiking group. I was showing my mom and James on my digital camera. We were all at a Landmark event. But the space looked different from the building in Fremont. More like a Childrens theatre with felted grey and red airline coloured benches to sit on. Even more stylish than normal. It must have been a special evening or something like that. I think the leader was trying to convince everyone how much their life sucked, or how much they inadvertently made it suck without knowing it. Except he mistakenly called on me, and asked me to be as completely honest about my life as possible. Well, currently my life rocks. Seriously. It’s not just false positive thinking crap anymore. I seriously believe my life kicks ass right now and I’m truly happy to be alive. So I told him that I love my life and I spend most of my time doing things I love like biking and hiking and that I love the way my life is working out. I would like to have an easier way of making money but I am quite content and happy with the way things are at the moment. So he pointed to a board they had up about where three things were written about WANTING: wanting what you don’t have, wanting what you do have, and wanting desperately things you think you can’t have. I was the Wanting what I do have, which was fine by me, but it’s weird, I feel like he tinged it with some sort of meaning, (like they do with being your word), that was supposed to make me feel bad about it in some degree so that I’d sign up for another course to make it better. But at least they were offering free Thai food! So we went into this long kitchen where there were about two vegetarian dishes I could eat because everything else had eggs or beef. Great, more salty refined carbs! I’m the least healthy vegetarian I know! But it was really good nonetheless. Only not quite appropriate food for hiking up in the snow which I was doing next with a bunch of friends from hiking again. We were going to go innertubing. Luckily we were able to take an elevator up to the top of most of the mountain. (I love dreams!) When we got there the snow was fresh, powdery, soft and cool. It was the perfect cold. We were right at the peak. Our innertubes looked like mini kayaks almost, round snubbed nose fronts, and flat at the back, like mini rafts, with strings to hold on to as we went cruising down the mountain. I stood at the top of the peak and shot off at full speed. For the first time in my life I wasn’t scared of speed and gravity put together. There were some trees and some rocks on the slope, but I didn’t really care if I was about to crash because about ten feet of soft poofy white cushion was all around me to soften any blow. It was perfect snow to glide down, and as I hit a rock and went flying in the air, I felt exhilarated rather than freaked, and landed again going straight down the slope as easily as a bird glides into the water. It was running into what looked like a snow buried bus stop that made me finally stop. I got up, realizing I was nearly down the run, to look for a place to hike back up and do it again. It was a remote place in the middle of the mountains where there were no ski lifts. Elevators to the top from the bottom yes, but no lifts. As I was looking around I noticed one of my friends doing the exact same thing, hitting a rock, flying and coming down. She did it a couple of more times than I did, for which I didn’t feel that jealous. A lot of hiking people were still at the top of the mountain. She came to a friction halt around the same place I did. We were about to walk around, out of the run way of other skiers, sledders, etc and hike back up when two wolves stalked around the corner of one of the trees. It was a mama and her cub. We decided to wait and so crawled into the half buried bus stop shelter. Now, I got scared. I know they eat small animals but for some reason I was worried she might want to hunt us for her baby. She picked up our warm smell and came right over, into the hut. Her mouth was open, tail wagged, halfway growling. Oh, great. I was trying to shoo her gently away (I didn’t know what else to do) and she gently put her jaw around my fist and growled again. Fantastic! I tried to pull away but she softly growled. Her pup waited outside. I noticed she the mama was fairly young herself. I tried to pull my hand away again, and she started really enjoying the game. I realized she was just playing, otherwise my wrist would've been gone altogether by now. So here I am playing with a wolf all of a sudden. At the same time she was keeping herself warm by leaning all her weight on me. Well this is just dandy, I’m being cuddled by a wild wolf. I noticed all the other skiers and snowboarders on the mountain had now formed a half moon around the cute little picture of me and Isabel stuck in the snow-buried shelter with a wolf and were taking photos but nobody was really offering to help us distract the wolves peacefully away from us. Finally a ranger type person came with some sort of fire, or light, that was supposed to repel them. But she didn’t get near enough before I woke up. I found myself sprawled, shoved against the top of the bed, with my arms in the exact position they’d been in as I’d been holding and playing with the young wolf. (5 Comments |Comment on this)